God's just been pouring out crazy blessings on me lately. He certainly doesn't have to, but He does.only but a week ago my teammates left, one by one, to return to the mainland. it felt like my whole world was falling apart. i had no idea that i could cry that much. in fact i'm beginning to think it was straight up unhealthy. haha. having to have like 5 shifts of goodbyes in 1 day with some of your closest friends, AND do repeat the very next day is just no bueno. anyway here are some updates:
project conclusions. undoubtedly one of the greatest summers i have ever had. and most definitely the greatest growth experienced in the shortest amount of time. GOD ROCKED MY WORLD THIS SUMMER. every struggle became a blessing from up above, and in the aftermath of that, a great lesson was learned. i was stretched and pulled, strengthened and uplifted. not only did i grow exponentially on a personal level, but i was also able to experience the overflow of love, growth & energy from my teammates as God continued to pour into us. if i had to sum up what i learned on summer project in one word, i'd have to say that i learned how to FOLLOW. that has always been a struggle for me, and boy did God make that clear. i knew it'd be hard, but i also knew that it was something i needed to grow in. it's funny how that works. anyway, God taught me how to follow. and boy was that a valuable lesson indeed :)
'ohana. probably one of the most common things said about going on summer project is that the community you experience is amazing. and soo...i'm about to add to that crowd. we truly were and are an 'OHANA. whether we were laughing, crying, praying, talking, joking, playing, dancing, traveling, or just BEING together, it was an 'ohana. i don't really know how else to explain it. it might've been the first time i'd experienced such a safe environment in a group THIS big. i told some of them things i'd never told people before, admitted convictions that i so dreadfully was ashamed of, experienced healing in ways i didn't know existed, and grew closer with one another as we grew closer to God. but now that most everyone is gone, i'm not gunna lie, PPD (post-project depression) is starting to set in. like it said before, it feels like a little bit of me went home with my 29 other teammates, and i just don't feel complete. i guess now i'll just have to focus my energy to finding a way to get to epic conference for a reunion! EHSP 2010, i love & miss you ALL so so much.
job. car. roomie. and nowww we talk about the other blessings. (in reference to the title; cuz He sure has been pouring out those blessings!) on tuesday, i felt like such ka-ka. i felt like i was drowning in this mess of moving & starting my new life here. but within 24 hours, it was a complete 180. in case i didn't realize that GOD PROVIDES after the crazy shenanigans we went through raising $60,000 in 1.5 days at briefing, God surely reminded me again when he poured out his blessings on wednesday. now first of all, let me start this off by saying that i have a more than amazing friend named kaiser who has hooked me up left and right. not only with the job & car bigger shtuff, but with the schmall kine things too, like rides and such! mahalooo (: anyway, this blog is getting quite lengthy so i'll just say what it is & just know that these are huge blessings.
- job: say hello to the newest employee of true religion ala moana! haha. i am going to continue searching for a job within my career field, but until then, this lady needs mooola!
- car: will soon be the proud owner of a black 1994 honda accord coupe. 68k mi. did i say 68k?!?!?! yes i did. with the paint job still beautifully in tact, and the inside sound system upgraded, this car is SUCH a steal. only bummer is that i won't be getting it until the beginning of september =/ sad panda!
- roomie: we have a girl coming to check it out on monday! cheeee. my rent will soon be lowered and i will be a happy camper.
anyway. AH. what is wrong with me? up late every night seems like. peaceee.
P.S.! tomorrow i get to see JBOOG at the shack! finaaalllllyyy a show to go to. chee!
