learning to fall more in love.

with jesus.


funny how right at this moment, it feels like time has slowed down yet sped up, all in one instant. while it seems like i've experienced A LOT since the school year started, i also feel like it's on the verge of passing me by.

so far i've finished one of my two quarters of my LAST year in college, and i can't believe it's almost over.

i'm not ready. not anxious. not excited.   i've just turned 21 and am having the time of my life. and i have GOD to thank for that. tonight (epic ugly sweater/winter party) really made me think. Epic means SO much to me. And seeing most of the members of my happy family truly bring joy into my life. Just the thought of leaving them all behind saddens me!

my growing heart for ministry has just been unfolded to me in the past year, and perhaps that's why i feel that i'm not ready to leave. there's still more work to do. still more people to serve. still more God to share.

but maybe that's why He's making it more and more clear to me that i not only want to go on summer project this summer, but more so that i NEED to go. any way you look at it, i have a heart for unsaved people. and it'd be selfish of me to keep that to myself. i guess now it's a matter of figuring out where i should go? signs are starting to point to/reaffirming epic summer project HAWAII. still praying though.


aside from all that future talk, i have to say that i've been pleasantly pleased and happy with particular people in my life. i'm truly feeling the love from them, and it's making our friendship just SO good. i'm thankful that i can be my weird, goofy, ridiculous, sinful, crazy, selfish, silly self around them, and they're still there to love me and care for me! God is so good. He truly does answer prayers, and truly does bless us with the friendships in our lives that we NEED. and let me just tell you, i NEED this person. :) they know me better than i know myself sometimes. and just lately, it's been so genuine, so fun, so amazing. sometimes i sit and catch myself smiling about this. HA. k enough. i'm getting way way way too sappy mushy. she probably knows who i'm referring to anyway. lol<3

THANK GOODNESS my spirit can be uplifted. cuz my body sure ain't. haha. been getting sicker by the day my friends, and i am not having it! i can't decide if it was the flu shot, my lack of sleep, my prior sore throat, or all of the above? either way, it sucks balls. ima handle it like a boss though before i take off for colorado. :) hahaha. 1 week and counting! so stoked to see all the litto cuz's, auntie's uncles, and grandparents. which reminds me: PLEASE PRAY FOR MY GRANDPARENTS AND I! I will be attempting to share with them this winter. I'm praying they already are saved. :) either way, i just gotta know. haha.

but yeah. time for bed now. gots work + lotsssaa baking to do! yay for finally updating with a REAL post. <3

payce y'all.