i've missed you.

dang, it's been a while! i've been very busy lately, and that is an understatement!

God has been SO good though. short recap on my life as of late(which I will expand upon later, once I get the chance):

• i received and completed my first assignment for my new internship! i am hoping to have some of my photographs published in the fall issue of SB Seasons Magazine :)
• jessica's bachelorette party --my very first one. i LOVE this girl.
• EPIC SLO friends visited<3<3<3
• senior send off. made me cryyyyy :(
• jen peet's bridal shower: SO cute
• I GOT BAPTIZED!
• Non-stop rehearsals/practices for ITO (polynesian dancing club on campus). our biggest performance of the year is THIS SATURDAY. ayeee! a little overwhelmed with trying to master the 7 dances & 1 duet I'll be in, plus finishing my costume.

aside from the things i've been doing, i've been learning so much about myself & the desires God has placed on my heart. over the past month i've been realizing more and more about my undeniable PASSION for PEOPLE. it's something i can't control, something i absolutely thrive on, and something that brings me joy in ways i can't even describe. i love interacting with people, caring for people, being with people, watching people, learning about people, and most of all- loving people.  and coupled with my eagerness to share God with people, i've found that these desires God has placed on my heart are in fact a great combination. He truly has blessed me!  I seem to realize this more and more with every major conversation I have. One of which I had this weekend, with a dear friend of mine. Nothing else brings more joy to me than being able to share with people I love, about what I love most.

all of this brings great comfort to my heart, as i gasp for air on a daily basis. i find myself nearly drowning in all of my back-to-back daily activities, and wondering how i'll be able to get it all together before time runs out. which brings me to my next point of...nostalgia. it can be defined as "longing for something past", however that which i am nostalgic about, has not yet passed. perhaps it's the anticipation of it all. i've come to the conclusion that I AM NOT READY TO LEAVE COLLEGE. these past 4 years truly have been the most amazing i've experienced thus far. just thinking about the radical life changes we're all about to embark on make me feel both excited and petrified simultaneously. the community i'll be leaving, the relationships, the lifestyle, and for goodness sake, EPIC. ohhh gosh, i get so melancholy thinking about it all. But au contraire, i know that God has something very specific and very amazing planned for each and every one of us. Whether we've figured out this calling or not, it's there, and it's coming! now that is a blessing in itself :)

i'll have to keep this in mind, as i finish up a few things this week: bible study, EPIC, and Iaorana te Otea (which, by the way, you should ALL come to my Performance this Saturday @ 7pm!!). These are the activities that I probably pour most of my time into, and I'm not even sure how I'll be feeling once it's all over. (i'll let ya know once I get there, haha). anyway, just trying to keep it real. and let it all out there. MAH BAD for taking so long to post! i hope you're all hangin in there, handling school business and whatnot. YOU GOT THIS! ♥

until next timeee...

aloha nui loa,
nickkayyy