the title of my blog continues to speak for itself.

as i sit amidst the whirlwind of events that are my life, i begin to realize that there are few certainties that will remain as the future unfolds.

i believe that 1. GOD will be forever constant in my life. but then, there are no numbers to follow. just realizing that this life is not my own. and that truly ANYTHING could happen.

now, that is both an awesome yet terrifying realization that i know i'm not quite ready for. i guess i'm just asking for prayer once again. i'm really uncertain about a lot of things in my life right now, and i'm truly just learning to breathe.  i'm trying to fight the urge to predict, plan, or get comfortable with what i merely think is to come. because quite frankly, i'm not the one that decides the future at all.

things are unfolding, and i'm beginning to understand. but i'm scared out of my MIND. what i thought i once wanted, may not even be what's best for me. and what i thought was best for me, might not even be that either.  it's just all a  b i g   f a t   m e s s.   hiding in my mind.

i guess that's where faith comes in. and just trusting that it'll all work out in one way or another. it's interesting because god has been using jamie lately to speak into my life about being comfortable with my decisions. she tells me that whatever path i choose to take, God knows, and i will one day end up right where He always wanted me to be. and that'll happen whether i take the long way or the short way. (thank you bebot♥. OH and thank you for letting me use your computer!)

but yes'm. that's my ramble of the day.. i realize my recent blogs haven't been too happy go lucky (with the exception of my last entry), so i will try to write more positively. i think i've just got a lot on my plate, and a lot on my mind. i will rejoice though, no worry beef curry :)

♥nickkayyy