overload.

soo much has happened since the last time i blogged. i don't even know where to begin. and nor do i know if i'm ready to talk about it?

all i know is, god is good. he never stops giving, loving, and blessing. and right now, i'm learning how to accept all of that from him. learning to breathe, learning to love. cuz quite frankly, i fall more and more in love with him as each day goes by. :)

as of right now, i'm in an interesting state of mind. i feel in between worlds. while i've pretty much adjusted back to life here in SB, i still feel caught between. i still miss hawaii like i did the day i left. and yet i'm embracing my life here as well. it's actually a really weird sensation. i think i'm still trying to find myself. seeking my place in this world, and how to live my life for god. i must admit, i am enjoying myself though. i've been going to the beach nearly everyday. and running too! i find myself just enjoying the simple things that life has to offer. like the smell of salty air, and sand between my toes. maybe this is where my life begins to unfold.

it's also become increasingly obvious to me that i have but ONE YEAR left in college! nay, 2 QUARTERS! i finish in march, godwilling. and i begin to think--how am i going to get EVERYTHING i want to do accomplished?! somehow it'll come together. somehow, it'll work. so here's a mini list of some of the things i want to do:

1. lead bible study
2. intramural tennis & soccer
3. polynesian dancing club
4. working out
5. real life
6. surfing

and the list goes on! in addition to the things i want to do, there's also school and my 2 jobs. eesh! i'm also considering taking on an internship. boy oh boy, this is going to be a busy year. [which is funny, but i say that right before every year] and above all else, i want to spend time with the people i love. we may never again have this opportunity to spend time together in sunny santa barbara, across the street from the beach, and living independently! oh man, all i gotta say is. LIVE IT UP. seize it all.

aside from thattt. i really need to buy a camera bag and a tripod. there is NO WAY i'm going to survive next year's intermediate photo class for the second time without those things! i'm really looking forward to it. i must say, i've developed quite a passion for photography :) which is why i am ITCHING for a new lens! i want something that'll allow me to take some macro shots. i really don't know much about equipment and whatnot, so if anyone has any suggestions, please let me know! although, i don't know if i'll be able to buy a new lens for some time...because they are so effing expensive and i'm feeling broke!

i also want a wetsuit. because every time i head out to the beach, i am anxious to surf. but it's cold. :( boo cali waters! oh well. in timeee.

anyway, plans for tonight include mucho alone time. everyone is studying for finals. and i am not. haha. someone play with me! ta ta for now. :)