the last leg.

here i am, in the last leg of the race.

not sure how i'm going to make it to the finish line, but it's coming--with or without me. i have a massive project, a final assignment, and a final standing between me and the close of my college education. 2 of the 3 will be due exactly 1 week from today. 

i'm gasping for air, i don't know how i'm going to do it.

for the first time in college, i'm actually struggling with my grades. i've come so far, and it'd be truly depressing to drop in the last quarter of my last year. so i'm working my butt off, doing what i can. it's tough though, and i'm barely hanging on. 

i keep reminding myself, this is the last leg. especially this week. in 7 painstaking days, most of it will be ALL OVER. i need strength though.

and that's where God comes in. in fact, God needs to be all over this, and every aspect of my life.  sometimes i feel as if it's passing me by... i'm feeling all these things, wanting to spend true quality time with the Lord, but the circumstances just aren't letting me. i map out my schedule everyday. and it goes hour by hour. person by person. work by work. i'm trying to do so much, i forget that sometimes i just need to breathe. haha ironic--again, as my blog title comes to mind over and over again. i'm still learning, still walking through it.

lately i've been just trying to assess what i want. that's a hard thing to discern. who truly knows that they want? if you do know, then you are very blessed. because i certainly don't. i have so many major major decisions to make within the next few months, and it's driving me crazy. and to be honest, i really haven't sought God on them as much as i'd like to. maybe i need a get away? or maybe i just need to make time.  either way, something's got to give.

just a lot on my plate, and a lot on my mind. maybe it's end of the quarter blues. who knows. but what i do know is that i need to get through this. the rest will follow. the Lord's got me.

♥nicky