let's be real.

for even a moment. :) i came across this verse today, and i found it to be very encouraging for women:

Charm is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. Give her of the fruit of her hands and let her works praise her in the gates.

that's the kind of woman i aspire to be. fearing the Lord! oh yes.


but anyway, the week is well underway, and i'm still finding myself adjusting (as many of you are as well). it's quite a sensation not having class, not being on campus, and NOT HAVING HOMEWORK! and although i am lacking those things, i've come to the realization that i still don't have as much free time as i thought i'd have. i'm currently working 2 jobs, may possibly take on an internship, dancing with ITO (polynesian dancing club), and co-leading Epic! it's just nuts. but i love them all so much, i don't want to give any up. haha. thus, i will continue to have a full schedule. which is good slash bad? i guess we'll find out.

aside from all that, i'm feeling kind of...off? if i were to describe the color of my heart, which robbyn & sarah might say (haha!), i might say that it's either rainbow colored, or brown. simply because i'm feeling both a lot of different things, yet a mesh of just everything--at the same time. feeling excited that it's spring & just ready to start this quarter off right. happy that i've got the Lord just being my awesome savior. weird because i am no longer a college student. blah because i feel kind of underpursued/a little shut down. and then feeling sad because of that + the fact that i'm moving out of the state in just 2 short months. which is kind of crazy, come to think about it. makes me nostalgic already! but yeah, basically just a hodge podge of feelings. all balled up into my little heart. aye!

and so, let's be real. i'm a girl, and all these crazy feelings, yes! i'm sure there are others that feel this way too. however, i am very encouraged by the verse i listed above. fearing God, as in trusting that He is sovereign over all areas in my life, knowing that He is all powerful, and believing that He loves me so much that He'll do what's best for me. now that, is a praise in itself.

anyway, here's to the last spring quarter in santa barbara. can't believe you're already here.