it's been playing through my head all day long.
it just reminds me of how blessed i am. i don't deserve anything...yet, He gave his only son to save me. and you.. now that's true love.
i don't even know how to put it into words, it's something i can't fully grasp. how can one possibly have so much love? sometimes i just sit in awe of how much love God has to give. it's endless.
so i strive to be more like that. brimming with love, for all. but we all know it's not that easy. i'm still learning, and still growing. perhaps someday God will bless me with the compassion He has for us.
anyway, i was just reflecting on life. and at the moment, i feel somewhat alone. which is silly, because i know i have God. but in reality i think it means that i need to let my guard down, listen, and let Him in. i've been so caught up in the world, the busy-ness, life. as amazing as hawaii has been, i've had little time to myself and let alone my thoughts. it's time to slow it down a bit and spend some quality time with my true love.
having a lack of communication with people back home has impacted me a lot. for one, the 3 hour time difference has been surprisingly tough. i'm out doing things all day, and then when i might have some time to talk, it's bedtime for everyone at home. and when they want to talk, i'm usually busy. i've grown used to this isolated type of communication (or lack thereof), and it's slightly saddening. i miss everyone at home, but i've just grown used to this spell of silence.
i think the thing that's on my heart most though is this feeling of a lack of pursuit. i'm not going to go into this because i'm not quite ready to talk about it, but yeah. i'm just praying.
mostly, i'm just waiting. waiting on the lord. to know what's next. to trust in what he has in store for me. i'm interested to see what will be awaiting me upon my homecoming.
anyhoo, just some dwelling thoughts for ya. a little different from my usual posts, but have no fear. i will now fill you in on what i've been up to:
backing it up to next week. popo came to visit! she arrived tuesday, and stayed until tuesday. it was really nice to see her. i must admit, it made me very happy to see her reunited with her sisters and family. i can't imagine being separated by thousands of miles from my family. it must've been tough to be the only one in the family to leave for the mainland. but i'm glad they all got to spend some quality time together :) we went out to dinner with her two nights, each extremely delicious! it was really nice being able to see our other auntie's, cousins, and relatives. it felt so wholesome. i think it's the family events that make me want to move here even more. i feel so at home. anyway, it's always a pleasant time seeing popo!
last week was also full of adventures! our friend matt f. is the ultimate wilderness explorer. haha. he took us to northshore last tuesday, and MAN was it amazing. i got all the other things i wanted to do accomplished :) first we went to the HE>i (he greater than i) store. LOVES it! it's an awesome Christian store that sells shirts, stickers, etc. etc. and the funny thing, is that i ran into the beautiful miss jaymee there! haha. second time in one week running into her unexpectedly. haha. i love how small this island is. :) after HE>i, we went to chuns. OH MAN. best part of my
entire trip here. matt knows all the secret spots, so he took us across the rocks where we saw HONUS! oh mahh gahhh. there were two, just chillin and sunbathing. we named them harry and harriet the honus. and they were bf & gf. :) and we even pet them! despite the fact that it's illegal. but they were fine. did you know that 6 out of 7 species of sea turtles are endangered? yep, true fact. but yeah seeing the honus was the highlight of my LIFE. next time i want to swim with them! after that we went a bit further to pupukea, where we spent time at honestly my favorite beach that we've visited thus far. there were like 3 people there, and the sand was oh so nice. dream come true ♥ and after thatt. we went to mastumotos. honestly, i have NO IDEA what the hype is all about with that place! wai'ola fo lyfe man. the ice was all granular--serious cali style. wai'ola is much better. and that's all i have to say about that. :)on thursday we went to makapu'u trail and the tide pools! SO BEAUTIFUL.
matt f., again, took us. how kind :) hiked up to the top to see the lighthouse! it was beautiful. and the hike was nice too. it was my first timee this trip. and now i want to go again! to get to the tidepools though, we went off trail and just went straight down. nutss. but SO worth it. the tidepools were pretty deep, and absolutely breathtaking. the water was uber salty though. haha. probably because it doesn't go anywhere. but all in all, it was a lot of fun!then friday was a lot of fun tooo. joanna's brother nate works
at the hilton, so dat, becca, jo, and i decided to go visit him and rent paddleboards :) i'd never done that before either, so it was a lot of fun! not as hard as it looks. but probably just because we were in a lagoon with no real waves. OH WELL. haha. we even raced on twos! we only had 2 boards so jo and i got on one, and becca and dat on the other and we raced around the lagoon. jo and i WERE in the lead...until our sudden mishap and fall into the water. haha. SAD panda! oh well. it was still a good race. afterwards we went shopping. :) and i did quite well! coming away with four new shirts and slippers thanks to jo♥ haha.ah! got to go. i will resume this update later. much love all♥♥♥
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